dear you.

hai! happy belated birthday!
hope you like it. hope you are happy.

hm, since there is stalker who stalk my beautiful life,
i just dont mind to share everything about you dah.
sila lah stalk semuanya ya?
macam best je jadi perhatian orang! haha..

btw, since i have no other place to share what i feel,
i will just burst it here.

how long will i stay patience and allow everything just happen?
how long will me be silent aside?

maybe they forget im also a human.
maybe he also forget.

i might be sitting silently here.
i might not do anything he doesn't want me to do.
i might follow everything he said.

but, there is a limit for me.
im afraid im reaching that limit.
im afraid for the time being, i care about what happen,
but later, theres nothing i would even worry about.
cause i know who i am.

when will i get the chance to get priority from you.
what am i differ from them?
this differ means, what am i lack since you are treating me like i have no heart.
like i dont know how to feel sad, to feel abandon, to feel loser.

i just can guarantee you, this particular time,
im still off the limit,
but im warning of myself who is starting to not even care anymore.
which will affect our relationship soon.

im not in mood

deactivate my fb. off my phone.
the only left is this blog and yahoo mail
haven't had enough sleep last night.

why is it every time is my fault?
is there nothing right i do?
why do i become the loser when the situation should announce me as the winner?
why is it? why?

have you encountered situation where you trust someone hardly
but at one time, everything that person lied just burst out.
i have.
what really should i do?
please make sure that action is matured enough
cause im 23rd this year
but i always act immatured.
that is the bad me.
i just want him to accept me as i am.
he knows me well.
but why cant he accept me?

dear you,
you never know how much i PUSH myself
to gain my trust back to you.
you NEVER know.
perhaps you never knew from what situation am i that time
but i MANAGE to do it ALONE
without any help from anyone, especially YOU.

I am a lady
I act like a lady
I believe ladies around world will did the same like me
because I cant become a man like you do
I dont have the chance.
And Im sorry for acting as a lady.
I cant help it.

Im sorry for running away.
i need time for my own maybe.
or maybe i just want you to find me
even i know, you will never find for me.
stupid me, right?

Since i have no idea, have you been well since yesterday or not,
if not, get well soon my dear.
if yes, that's good. Im relieved to hear that.

Today, i want to be at my room alone.
have no appetite.
dont find me from my friends.
i dont like it.
plus, they will never can contact me.

I'll be back when im okay later.
Dont know when,
but i believe if you really want me,
sincerely love me
you will wait for me.

Assalamualaikum.

- sitinorazurakamaruzaman-

selamat bercuti

sayang dah pulang ke kelantan.
hey, saya rindu awak!
saya sedapkan hati cakap cuti ni kejap je
padahal lama!

saya rindu awak
saya sayang awak!

nak bagitahu satu rahsia ni,
semalam kan saya tacing sebenarnya
tunggu awak message nak tak nak
tapikan, bila dapat message awak yang semalam tu,
tidur terus senyum- senyum

saya rindu awak! terima kasih baby.=)

my heart

perempuan yang kuat

Perempuan yang kuat itu ialah apabila hatinya hancur, berderai tanpa mampu dicantumkan semula, dia berusaha untuk bangun kembali, berdiri teguh menjalani kehidupan yang penuh ranjau dengan senyuman yang indah.. Bukan untuk menunjukkan dirinya kuat, tetapi untuk memujuk hatinya yang lara bahawa keyakinannya, kepercayaannya dan takdir hidupnya semuanya dalam genggaman yang Maha Mengetahui..

masalahnya, kuat ke aku ni?

Ajari aku

Tak pernah suka Anuar Zain.
tapi honestly, lagu- lagu dia best jugak
sweet la for a girl
kalau lelaki yang nyanyi tu
sayang kita, dan lagu tu untuk kita
kompem cair gak kan.
haha. bilalah saya nak dapat. haha
saya suka lagu ini!

Ajari aku tuk bisa

Menjadi yang engkau cinta

Agar ku bisa memiliki rasa

Yang luar biasa untukku dan untukmu

Ku harap engkau mengerti

Akan semua yang ku pinta

Karna kau cahaya hidupku malamku

Tuk terangi jalan ku yang berliku

Hanya engkau yang bisa

Hanya engkau yang tahu

Hanya engkau yang mengerti

Semua inginku

Mungkinkah semua akan terjadi pada diriku

Hanya engkau yang bisa mencintaiku

Hanya engkau yang bisa

Hanya engkau yang tahu

Hanya engkau yang mengerti

Semua inginku

Hanya engkau yang tahu

Hanya engkau yang mengerti

Semua inginku

Ajari aku tuk bisa mencintaimu

SAYASAYANGAWAKABDULFATAHBINABHALIM!

Sayang nak apa?

saya tak tahu nak jawab apa.
ye, sungguh..
sebab kalau saya cakap apa yang saya nak,
boleh ke awak bagi?
sebab..

saya nak ...


saya nak saya lupa apa yang jadi tahun lepas
ye, saya tahu, saya kena lupakan
saya berusaha sekeras- kerasnya
tapi kenapa mimpi tu selalu datang lagi
kenapa hati dan perasaan ni kacau saya lagi
kenapa saya tak dapat nak yakin dengan awak
macam mana saya yakin dulu

mungkin betul cakap orang,
sekali kita dah yakin, bila ada yang jadi
tak senang nak pupuk balik keyakinan tu
saya belajar seboleh mungkin saya

tapi jujur, saya masih takut, saya masih ragu
saya masih ingat, saya masih sedih

maafkan saya..
saya tahu awak pun berusaha nak baikkan saya
saya nampak perubahan dalam diri awak tu
dan saya hargai sangat- sangat
cuma saya takut itu hanya sementara..
macam dulu..
hm..

saya nak cakap dekat awak
saya nak semua tahu awak dengan saya
saya nak budak tu tahu awak dengan SAYA!
saya nak kawan- kawan awak tu tahu awak dengan SAYA
saya nak saya nak saya nak.

saya nak keyakinan saya pada awak tu balik macam dulu.