deactivate my fb. off my phone.
the only left is this blog and yahoo mail
haven't had enough sleep last night.
why is it every time is my fault?
is there nothing right i do?
why do i become the loser when the situation should announce me as the winner?
why is it? why?
have you encountered situation where you trust someone hardly
but at one time, everything that person lied just burst out.
i have.
what really should i do?
please make sure that action is matured enough
cause im 23rd this year
but i always act immatured.
that is the bad me.
i just want him to accept me as i am.
he knows me well.
but why cant he accept me?
dear you,
you never know how much i PUSH myself
to gain my trust back to you.
you NEVER know.
perhaps you never knew from what situation am i that time
but i MANAGE to do it ALONE
without any help from anyone, especially YOU.
I am a lady
I act like a lady
I believe ladies around world will did the same like me
because I cant become a man like you do
I dont have the chance.
And Im sorry for acting as a lady.
I cant help it.
Im sorry for running away.
i need time for my own maybe.
or maybe i just want you to find me
even i know, you will never find for me.
stupid me, right?
Since i have no idea, have you been well since yesterday or not,
if not, get well soon my dear.
if yes, that's good. Im relieved to hear that.
Today, i want to be at my room alone.
have no appetite.
dont find me from my friends.
i dont like it.
plus, they will never can contact me.
I'll be back when im okay later.
Dont know when,
but i believe if you really want me,
sincerely love me
you will wait for me.
Assalamualaikum.
- sitinorazurakamaruzaman-
